I woke up this morning feeling super grumpy. Like I-could-give-the-Grinch-Who-Stole-Christmas-a-run-for-his-money kind of grumpy. You wanna know why?
I am burnt the hell out. And it’s making me grumpy.
And I don’t think it’s because I’m doing too much. On the contrary, I think it’s because I’m not doing the things that I want to do.
Oh, you know, things like:
- Focus more on writing that book I’ve been putting off. I’ve had the idea in my head for so long that the notes I’ve written for it could probably be a book by itself.
- Figure out how to turn that teen story that I wrote into a book that people might actually pay for. I mean, I’ve paid a few dollars for some really cheesy books in recent years. Why not my cheesy book?
- Spend time scrapbooking. Yes, I said scrapbooking. Don’t judge.
- Train myself for that half-marathon I’m going to run next year. Guys, I always say I’m going to run a half-marathon ‘next year’. The only problem is ‘next year’ never comes.
Then there’s the huge laundry list of other things that I want to do but let’s not even go there. Just knowing the list of stuff I said I would do in 2016 and not being able to tick much off now that we’re in the last few weeks of the year is maddening.
So as I was saying, this burnout anger that I’m feeling isn’t because I’m doing too much. It’s the fact that I’m not doing enough of the things I love.
It’s not that I absolutely hate the things that are currently keeping me busy. Raising three kids and supporting all of their activities are a must and I don’t hate it. The job is a must and I don’t hate it. Taking care of our new fur-ball is a must and I don’t hate it.
You can probably imagine how much of my time these must-do’s consume. Add the unexpected curve balls that life throws in and the fact that we only have 24 hours in a day, some of which should really be spent on sleeping, then you get the picture of how there’s little time for me to do anything else. And when you only have maybe 1 or 2 extra hours in a day to do other things how do you choose from your mile-long list? Something has to give, right? In my case, the things that I really want to do are giving.
So what is 2017 me going to do that 2016 me failed to do?
- I’m going to say no to more things. Even when my baking friend tells me that the 4-week long cake decorating class will change my life for the better. Even when I know in my heart that a particular business endeavor is awesome and I could potentially make good money. If it doesn’t involve my passion for writing then it’s not for 2017 Mylee.
- I’m going to put down my electronic devices and leave them down a little bit longer. Obviously, I will need them to do things like writing-on-the-go and even digital-scrapbooking-on-the-go (because as a parent of 3 busy kids I’m literally always on-the-go). I’ll just be more aware of when I’ve fallen into that Pinterest rabbit hole.
- I’m going to whittle down my to-do list. Because I know that not being able to check things off a mile-long list triggers me. So what’s the most immediate thing I can do? Reduce the length of the list.
- I’m going to meditate regularly. Once upon a time, a friend told me of the benefits of taking even just 15 minutes out of your morning as soon as you wake up to quiet yourself and meditate. I tried it on a few occasions and after I figured out how to not just fall back asleep, I did notice that it gave me a better disposition to deal with trying to get 3 kids out of the house by 7am on the dot. This made for a better start to the day which then resulted in a better day over all.
So these are my ideas on how I’ll handle that feeling of burnout anger moving forward. Because if I wake up one morning late in 2017 feeling Grinchy…
How do you handle burnout? What tips and tricks do you have for making sure you have time for doing the things that you love?